Title: Frustration
Author: Rari

(notes and disclaimer with part one)

Frustration: Part 5

He brought her closer and he kissed her. He touched her lips gently with his tongue begging entry again and she gave it to him. This kiss was so gentle. Buffy could feel her insides relaxing, almost as if he were massaging her. It was undemanding and she didn't even need to think about it to fully participate.

In time she pulled back. "How do you know how to kiss so many different ways?"

"I love kissing."

"You're so good at it."

Giles smiled as he kissed her cheek and her jaw and then her neck. He made his way back up to her lips. She felt like his lips had been gone forever. He kissed her for a few minutes more and then he pulled away. Buffy let out a moan and tried to follow his lips. Giles grinned and held her back. "Buffy, I want to clear up a couple misconceptions you have before we go any further."

Buffy looked a little nervous and he laughed and held her tightly. She pouted at him. "Are you making fun of me?"

He smiled. "Just a little. Do you mind?"

"I'll let you know. Depends on what you say." She repositioned herself so she was sitting on his thighs, where she could clearly see his face.

"Fair enough." Giles felt an odd sensation. With a moment's attention he realized that he was feeling joyful. It was bubbling up inside of him and he was having a hard time keeping a calm exterior. He blew out a breath to calm himself. "First of all. You, Buffy Summers, are exactly my type."

Buffy let out a soft gasp. "I am?"

Giles smiled. "Oh, yes. You have been for a while. I suppose that as a stranger, that maybe you seemed as if you weren't my type, but it's who you are, the woman that I've come to know and care about that makes you my type. Not how experienced you are, or…" He tried but couldn't keep a huge grin off his face, "…or how much kinky sex you've had." Then he started to laugh.

"See, now you are definitely making fun of me." But she couldn't help but smile in return. He so seldomly laughed. It was wonderful to hear.

"Yes, I am. But only because you delight me so. Second. I would consider it remiss of me not to teach you everything you want to know about the art of making love. I would love to teach you. Ethan was quite mistaken about that. And there are books on the subject, and movies. And we can read and watch them together because I'm sure there are things I could learn as well on how to better pleasure you."

Buffy couldn't keep her eyes off of him. She felt as if he was making love to her just with his words. He continued. "Buffy, we'll only do what you're comfortable with, what feels good to you. You just have to be honest with me. Okay?"

"Okay."

"And third. I am not particularly into nor especially experienced in what I might consider kinky sex. So, let's not even worry about that for the time being. If at some time you want to experiment with any of it I imagine you could talk me into it." He grinned at her. "Okay?"

She grinned back. "Okay."

He kissed her quickly. "Okay." He kissed her again and then again until she shifted in his lap and straddled him. She wrapped her arms around his neck while he pressed her tightly against him. He moved his mouth to her ear and nibbled on her ear lobe. He whispered to her. "Now, will you let me make love to you, or do you want to wait?" When she didn't answer he pulled back to get a closer look at her. She was blushing.

He kissed her cheek. "Lesson number one. Speaking is essential for good sex. And words are very powerful. There is no more powerful aphrodisiac than the right words at the right time. I need to know if you want to wait. And I need to know if you want me to make love to you. I need to hear the words because they will make me want you more, and they will make you want me. Trust me.

Buffy pushed passed her shyness. She looked him in the eyes. "Please make love to me." Giles closed his eyes and Buffy could almost feel the physical sensation her words caused in him. She grew bolder. "I feel like this will be my first time."

Giles groaned and caught her lips up in a searing kiss. Buffy felt as if she was drowning in him. His tongue searched her mouth and mated with hers until a matching heat grew in her body, making her long for so much more. Still kissing her Giles stood, Buffy's legs still wrapped around him. He pulled his head away and smiled at her. "Then let me make it wonderful for you." Holding her tightly he carried her upstairs.

Giles lay her down on the bed. "Now, a lesson about me. I like to talk when I make love. I'll want to tell you how much I love to touch your body and I'll tell you how much I love it when you touch me. I like to ask questions to find out what you like because it's important to me to know how to make you crazy and how to calm you down. I'll want to know everything about your body and I want you to learn everything about mine." He kissed her lips gently and then he kissed her neck again. "Is the talking okay?"

Buffy nodded, her eyes never leaving his face. "I love to listen to you talk."

"Have you done much talking while you made love before?" Buffy shyly shook her head. "So maybe I'll just ask you some questions at first and then as you get more comfortable you can feel free to say what ever you want to say." At her small nod he smiled at her.

He ran his hand down her side, his fingers touching just the side of her breast. She could feel her nipples start to respond even to that light touch. Giles spoke softly. "May I undress you? I want to see your body. I want to touch your skin. Do you want that too?"

Buffy shivered. She whispered. "Yes."

Giles had Buffy stand by the bed. First he just looked at her. "You are so beautiful." He stood and moved behind her running his hands down her arms. He pulled her bottom against him and he swayed his hips a little so she could feel how hard he was. He slowly began to pull down her zipper, holding the dress in place as it began to fall off of her. As it fell off her shoulders he kissed them both. As it fell to her waist he placed kisses all the way down her back until he was pressing his face against the small of her back. "Your skin is so soft." He kissed her. "It makes me want to kiss you everywhere."

Buffy's head rolled back and she moaned. "I wish you would."

Giles smiled. He let the dress fall the rest of the way to the floor and he turned her around. "You are so perfect." Buffy frowned and she looked down at herself. Giles caught her chin with his hand and he made her look at him. "No, don't do that. We are all taught to dislike our bodies. It's like a disease in this society. Understand that to me you are perfect because it is from here that I see you." He touched his heart. "You are the Slayer, your body is sleek and muscular and I love it. It turns me on. It is perfection to me."

Buffy threw her arms around Giles. "God, I love you so much."

Giles growled as he lifted her so her lips were level with his. Again he kissed her as if he might eat her alive. Buffy just surrendered to it, wrapping her legs around his thighs. Keeping his hold on her, Giles lowered her to the bed again.

He rolled to the side and began to kiss her skin. He kissed her along her collarbones, under her jaw; he kissed her sides and her belly. Then he kissed her breasts, biting her pebbled nipples through her bra. "Do you like that?" Buffy nodded. "Tell me."

"It feels so good." Her back was arched as if to beg him to take more of her in his mouth.

He unclasped the front closure of her bra and pushed it aside. Holding one breast in his hand he laved the other one. "You taste so good. I love the feel of your nipple in my mouth."

His words were setting her on fire. "Keep talking."

Giles silently chuckled. "Ah, I see I have a closet talker on my hands." He moved back up to kiss her, never letting his hands leave her breasts. "I've wondered how they'd feel, how they'd fit in my hands."

"Are they as good as you wondered?"

"It's like they were made for me. As if you were made for me." He moved back down and suckled on her breast. Suddenly he moved off of her.

"Hey, where are you going?"

"Close your eyes."

"Why?"

"Trust me, Buffy. Close your eyes." Buffy closed her eyes and as she did she realized why she could imagine doing all of these things with Giles. It was because she did trust him. She trusted him more than she trusted anybody.

She heard Giles open a drawer and then close it. Then she felt something so soft brush against her body. He'd lick her and something would follow, something that made her skin feel so sensitive. He licked each breast, each nipple and the combination of his tongue and the softness made her crazy. "What are you touching me with? Can I open my eyes?"

"Yes." Buffy looked down and giggled. It was a feather duster. Giles grinned at her. "Now you are a woman of the world. If anyone ever asks you if you'd made love using a feather duster you can look bored and say, of course, hasn't everyone?"

Buffy giggled again. "You're silly." She'd never seen him being silly before and she loved it.

"I like to be silly in bed. And I like to be serious. There's room for it all." He brushed her legs with the feather duster.

"It's so soft." She looked at him with inquisitive eyes. "What else is in that drawer?"

Giles grinned. "An assortment of goodies that I might let you see, if you're good." He gave her a suggestive look.

Buffy laughed. She loved seeing him this way. She lifted her head up and kissed him thoroughly.

When she laid her head back down Giles gestured with his hand. "Turn over." At her look he laughed. "Go ahead, turn over." As she turned he removed her bra. He ran the feather duster down her back, placing kisses both before and after. Moving down her body he removed her panties as he feather dusted her bottom and her legs. Now that he had her completely naked he lay on top of her and then flipped them both over so her back was pressed against his front. He wrapped his legs around her and he fondled her breasts while he nibbled on her neck. "You feel so good pressed against me."

She felt surrounded and protected by him and yet at the same time, completely open. His clothed body beneath her felt so sexy somehow. She ground her bottom against his cock, anticipating the feel of him inside of her.

Giles rolled them over again. "I love that I can't hurt you. It takes some of the pressure off, especially as I'm so much larger than you."

"I love that you're so much larger than me. It makes me feel all girlie inside."

Giles chuckled again. He began moving down her body again, kissing her back, kissing her bottom. He nibbled her body, nibbling his way down to her thigh. Giles encouraged her to open her legs wider. "You feel so wonderful to me. Do you like me kissing you and biting you?"

Buffy writhed underneath him as he kissed her inner thigh. Her voice practically squeaked. "Yes. It feels so…" She didn't know what it felt like. She just hoped he didn't stop.

Giles couldn't believe that no one had touched her body here, like this. She was so delectable and so responsive. He was thrilled that he'd be the one to do this to her first. He teased her a bit longer by running his tongue along the seam of her inner thigh, coming so close and yet not touching her core. She was already crazy under him. "Do you want more?"

"Yes." Her fists were clenched at her side.

Giles gently rolled her over running his fingers through her curly hair at her mound. Again he spread her legs and again he teased her with his tongue. Positioning himself between her thighs he watched her as he finally placed his mouth over her, touching her with his tongue.

She almost came off the bed. "Oh God. That feels so good."

Giles grinned and held her down as he licked her again. With his other hand he held her open so his tongue could explore her more fully. "You taste like honey."

Buffy was past the point of conversation. "Oh God, oh God."

Giles touched her clit with his tongue and moved his hand so he could insert a finger into her vagina. She was so tight. Giles groaned. "You feel like velvet. Use your muscles and massage my finger." When she did as instructed he groaned again. He inserted a second finger in her. "You're so tight and so wet. I can't wait to be inside of you." He started moving his fingers in and out, very slowly, as he continued to lick her folds and clit.

Buffy's body was shaking. Her head was moving from one side to the other as moans left her mouth. Her body was out of her control. Giles was making her hotter than she'd believed possible. Her moans started coming out as pants as the pressure started to build. Giles encouraged her. "That's it. Come for me, Buffy. Let me taste you. Let my fingers feel you pulse." He moved his mouth over her clit and gently ran his tongue over and over her.

Buffy exploded and she let out a scream. Giles moved down so he could taste her juices. He felt his groin respond to the pressure that pulsed around his fingers. He longed to be inside of her but he wanted to give her a minute to calm down.

Buffy had other ideas. She began to pull on him. "Get up here." Giles began to crawl up her body. As he got close enough she started pulling off his sweater. "I want you naked."

Giles was eager to comply with her wishes. He stood and pulled off his clothes. When he was naked he stood there for a minute and let her look at him. She touched his cock. "All mine. All of you. You're all mine and you're perfect." Giles grinned and he moved to lie down by her side. Buffy didn't want that. "No, I want you on top of me." Giles first opened the drawer again and pulled out a condom. Buffy helped him roll it on.

Then Giles rolled on top of her and held her tightly. "You feel so good. It feels so incredible to feel your body against mine." He raised his head and looked at her. "I can't wait to be inside of you."

Buffy thrust up against him. She couldn't wait either. But first she wanted…she turned her head away. Giles turned her head back. "What is it? What do you want? What do you want me to do?"

She could feel herself blushing. "I know you like to talk and everything but is it all right to talk…" She couldn't even finish her sentence.

Giles' eyes lit up. "Talk what? Do you want to talk dirty to me, Buffy?"

Buffy turned her face away even as she nodded. Giles again brought her head back to face his. "Do you want to tell me to fuck you, Buffy? Is that what you want?" Again she nodded. "Do it, then. Do it, and I will. I'll fuck you as hard you want. But you have to tell me to do it." He teased her with his cock but he didn't enter her. He pulled away. "Tell me. Tell me to fuck you."

Buffy looked at Giles' face. She leaned up and kissed him. She kissed her way to his ear and she whispered to him. "I want you to fuck me."

Giles found her lips again and kissed her hard. "You want my cock in you?"

She breathed the word out. "Yes."

"Then tell me."

"I want your cock in me."

"What do you want me to do?"

"Fuck me, Giles. I want you to fuck me." Giles thrust inside of her and they both groaned. Buffy was on a roll now. "Fuck me hard."

Giles grinned and he complied. He pounded into her. "Do you like that? Am I fucking you hard enough?"

"No, fuck me harder."

Giles lifted her legs higher and thrust even more deeply within her. "Like that?"

"Yes, oh, yes, like that." He was relentless. Buffy felt pummeled by him and she felt loved by him. After a while she wanted his lips again. "Come down here, I want to kiss you."

Giles released her legs so he could rest on her. He slowed his pace down as he began to kiss her. Their pace became languorous as they matched their tongues thrusting in each other's mouths to match his thrusting inside of her. Buffy felt the pressure mounting again. Giles could feel it; he could hear it in her whimpering. He pulled back from the kiss so he could speed up again. "Wait for me Buffy. Let's come together."

"Hurry."

Giles slammed into her. As he heard Buffy start to cry out he found his own release and he cried out himself. They held each other tightly as their bodies slowly stopped moving. Buffy locked her legs around him and she ran her hands up and down his back. He practically purred. "That feels so nice. Your hands feel so nice."

Buffy kept touching him. Giles gently withdrew and threw the used condom away in the trashcan by the bed. Giles rolled to her side. He tenderly pushed her wet hair off her face. "That was incredible. You were incredible."

Buffy grinned. "I was?"

Giles nodded. "You were."

Buffy kissed him softly on the lips. "Only because I was with you."

Giles shook his head. "Because we were together."

Buffy looked at him with wonder. "You're so good at all of it."

Giles let out a laugh. "I've had a few more years of practice Buffy. I was having sex before you were born." He kissed the end of her nose. "I can see you are going to be an excellent student."

"Well, I do have the best teacher."

"Thank you very much."

Buffy wiggled against him. "That was the best sex I ever had."

Giles grinned. "And just think we've barely begun checking things off that list of yours."

"I think I want to make it a very long list."

Giles barked out a laugh. "You can make it as long as you want. I'm certain we can figure things out as we go along."

Buffy ran her fingers along his face as if trying to see him with her fingers. "I've been so stupid." She grinned. "And Ethan was so wrong."

"What do you mean?"

"Ethan said that the reason I said all those things to you…" Buffy looked guilty for a moment. "And I'm really sorry about all of that, by the way."

"Consider yourself forgiven for everything and finish what you were saying."

Buffy grinned. "Okay. Actually I have to rephrase it. Here's the stupid part. I thought that the reason I was saying all those things to you was because you wanted me, and if I ever let on that I thought you were a guy, especially a sexy guy, that you'd think I was coming on to you and then things would get really weird."

"Not so stupid. I did want you; at least I have for the past few months. But I think I could have controlled myself if you'd let it slip that you thought I might not be quite so horrible as you'd once thought."

"That was the stupid part. You have more control than anyone I know. But now it makes more sense. It was a way of keeping me in check. Because I think I've wanted you too and I didn't know what to do about it. So, in typical Buffy fashion I went completely the other way."

Giles' eyebrows furrowed. "You've been saying those things to me since the day we met."

Buffy grinned. "I know."

"You've been secretly lusting after me for five years?"

"Yeah, so secretly I didn't even get it, until right now."

Giles burst into laughter. "God, we are a pair. It's somewhat of a miracle that this happened at all."

Buffy grinned. "We owe it all to Ethan."

"I can't wait to tell him." Giles laughed again. "I don't imagine he'll be too pleased."

Buffy frowned. She had just thought of something Ethan said. "Did you like Faith more than me?"

"Excuse me?"

"Faith, did you think she was sexier than me? Was she your type?"

Giles rolled his eyes. "Is this more of Ethan's nonsense?" At her nod he continued. "You do understand that whatever Ethan said to you, he wasn't trying to do you a favor. He was trying to make you feel badly. There is nothing Ethan likes more than to spread misery."

Buffy frowned again. "Are you avoiding the question?"

Giles let out an exasperated laugh. "No, I'm not. And no she wasn't my type, and no I didn't think she was sexier than you. I tried very hard not to think about either of you that way. You were both teenagers at the time."

"Did you really have sex with Ethan?"

"I assume he told you I did?" Buffy nodded. Giles sighed. "It was a long time ago." He looked at her. "Does that bother you?"

Buffy smiled a lopsided smile. "I know this is weird but it sort of turns me on. Not the Ethan part, but the you with a guy part."

Giles kissed her. "Why, Miss Summers, I believe that's rather kinky of you."

Buffy got a delighted look on her face. "You think I'm kinky?"

"The kinkiest."

Buffy let out a happy sigh. She ran her fingers through Giles' chest hair. She looked at him when she could feel him laughing again. "What? What are you laughing at?"

"I told you I was going to get laid tonight."

Buffy let out a peal of laughter. "Yes you did."

Giles supported himself on one elbow as he looked down at her. "What I didn't know was that I would find myself in bed with the woman I love most in the world."

Buffy lifted a hand up and touched his cheek. "I was hoping you'd tell me that you loved me."

"I love you so much. You are the other half of me, you always have been, but never more so than right now. You are my partner in all things."

Buffy's eyes grew bright. "You were right there, right in front of me." She shook her head. "It is like a miracle. It's a miracle that you love me. It's a miracle that I love you back." She grinned. "I'm so glad you decided to get laid tonight."

Giles pulled her close. "Me too. Very, very glad."

"And if I ever see that brunette around I'm taking her down."

Giles let out a sleepy laugh. "The only reason I was even looking at her is because never in my wildest imagination did I think that you would ever be mine." He yawned.

Buffy pulled up the covers and snuggled back down into his arms. "Do you really like brunettes better than blondes?"

"Buffy?"

"What?"

"Shut up and go to sleep."

The End
December 31, 2001